because i know you.
所以我知道,你口是心非。
你可以抱走「你是我的★★」徵文比賽第一名沒關係,但是我知道,就算你會幼稚得說我學你,但是讀得時候還是會笑得很像傻瓜。
因為我知道,被在乎的感覺讓人上癮。
還有能力吹泡泡的時候,就要氣聚丹田的全力以赴。
所以我要告訴你,你是我的ABC。
Accepts me as who I am
你說,you don't give a shi*t about my gender.
你說我是超人,卻看過我最脆弱的一面。
你說我是處女A,是最機車的星座加最難搞的血型等於最糟糕的組合,但是你卻沒有逃跑。
你說我是個一發不可收拾的工作狂,卻還是不離不棄。
你說我可以無所不用其極得列出落落長一張缺點大全清單,你還是會願意照單全收。
你看見我的好,每一個都記在心裡;看見我的不好,每一個都單刀直入地一"捅"見血,然後拋在腦後。
i wear no masks when you look at me, because i know that you'd see rite through me, and tell me that "no u dummy, u've got the wrong one on!"
Believes in me
那天因為廣告系的二十週年展所以陳憶寧放我們假。你樂得很,可以不用翹課請假出公差去教育電台接受訪問,而我很順理成章地被你一起拖去。
我想或許如果沒有認定你的話,我也不會這麼隨性地任你擺佈。
地點是八方雲集,話題是那時候繞來繞去都繞不出來的踢莽,說不出口的癥結點是我的mentor和inspiration再過兩個月就要拍拍屁股走人,不想承認的是其實我在害怕。
我的第一堂社課news sharing是你帶的,我上過你的北韓核武專題,我在你的社長任內當過幹部,我知道i have big shoes to fill,卻擔心my feet are too small.
然後你停箸,定睛看著我,對我說: 「馬煥恩,有的,你還有很多可以給。」
我不知道你哪來這麼大的信心,不知道我做了甚麼說了甚麼讓你可以這麼篤定,但是我知道在那一瞬間,我忽然覺得我可以,真的可以,因為我所追逐的背影、所看齊的目標,相信我可以。所以不可以也要可以,因為如今,我背負的不再只是對自己的完美主義,還有妳的期待和信任。
I can't and won't let you down, because you believed in me, and you still do.
Calls me just to say "hi"
比較貼切的說法,應該是簡訊攻勢。隨時隨地。
在補習班又遇見了甚麼不想見到的傢伙、去家教的途中又出了甚麼代誌、公車司機又是如何和你犯衝、辦公室又發生了甚麼驚天動地的大八卦。
隨時隨地,讓我參與在你的生活瑣碎中,隨時隨地和你緊密連結。
you don't call me just to say hi, you call me to let me be part of ur life.
Doesn't give up on me
疲倦的時候,是最可能做傻事的時候。
在我已經打定主意,要放棄我們的時候,you fought for us.
逃避總是簡單得多,放棄總是輕鬆得多,但是我們都知道簡單和輕鬆卻常常只是暫時的假像,只是後悔的前奏。
因為你沒有放棄,讓我發現,現在的我,再也不可能會放手。
it takes two to tangle, and this time i'm in for the long haul.
Envisions the whole of me (even the unfinished parts)
在我自己想都不敢想之前,我想你就看到我成為show girl的一天。
在我還在忐忑自己喝不喝得到西北風幾近麻痺的時候,你卻可以因為補習班閒雜人等的一句閒話揪著一顆心開始五味雜陳。
在我失去自信,放眼望去只見自己辛苦鋪蓋的羊腸小徑通向一片黑時,你為我點亮了一盞燈。
就算光芒微弱,但至少驅走了寒意。
you always see the best in me, even in the dark, especially in the dark. u see me, against all odds.
Forgives my mistakes
如果說原諒的前提是要先犯錯,總覺得最好還是別讓你有機會原諒我的好,僅管這又是另外一個測試"真愛"的手法我想。
我在想,我在你心目中的形象,應該在去芝加哥的那個時候,就該直直落,吊在"難搞學妹"的車尾永不得翻身。
或是當你和李安妮千里迢迢從紐約殺回來就籌備一個魔鬼訓練營,而我卻膽大包天地說,喔我要去金門時,氣到吹鬍子瞪眼睛說不出話來的你,應該已經把我打入冷宮,碎屍萬段。
我不知道我是怎麼鹹魚翻身,不知道你根本還記不記得這些現在回頭看感覺微不足道得過節和摩擦。
我只知道,當你在錯誤和愚蠢的泥淖中打滾,搞得自己一身髒卻還有人願意伸出援手把你拉出這淌渾水,那就是遇見"真愛"了。
we've both made our share of mistakes and blunders, but we have yet to stumble and fall because we have each other to hold on to.
Gives unconditionally
八百五十五元的包裹,裝載的是雪中送炭的熱量,是熱騰騰剛出爐的愛心,是水不熄風吹不冷的友情。
八百五十五元的包裹,是無價。
friendships that last come without price tags, cuz there's no way you can fit all those zeros on one slip of paper, so why bother?
lasting friendships are those exquisitely rare beings that are almost fiction like unicorns and santa claus, but you will know one without a shadow of a doubt when you see one. i know that there won't be a "happily ever after" to our fairy tale, because i don't want to be there just for the ups. i have budgeted for the downs, so bring it on babe, cuz i'll go where ever u go.
Helps me
只有我們這種傻瓜,才會當可以順理成章撇清包袱和枷鎖的時候,自告奮用地往火圈裡跳。
為什麼會答應在交換期間當椅子呢? 我相信並不是因為我魅力無邊。
但是我們兩個莫名其妙的感情用事,卻是扶持彼此的羈絆,只是一念之間看似愚蠢的決定,卻種下了我們的不了情。
都曾經是不夠坦白的悶騷鬼,但我們用我們自己的方式守望對方、幫助對方,希望可以不用說,就高分貝地傳遞我們放不下的在乎。
because we went thru what we went thru, u are someone who i can always turn to, knowing that this time round, neither one of us will throw in the towel.
Invites me over
有一天,這個其實可以省略了。
because what's mine is urs and what's urs is mine, and it's just ridiculous to have to invite urself back home.
Just be there for me
心甘情願地爆肝,對我們來說,似乎都已經是家常便飯了。
爆肝,只為了多說一句話,多一次的調侃,多一抹得意的笑,可以多看一眼,就算沉默以對也無所謂。
爆肝,只為了在拒馬上多一篇嘔心瀝血之作,為的是要對方驚喜地發現又有更新,就算自己正在熟睡中。
爆肝,只為了為彼此守候,無所不用其極,沒有保留。
it's not about what you say or what you do, it's about you being you, and being there for me.
Keeps me close at heart
有的時候,the mind plays trick on people: 在沙漠會看到海市蜃樓,在醫院會看到已經離開的人,剛看完恐怖片的小朋友會聽到床底下傳來窸窣聲。但是有的時候,the heart plays trick on people too. 看不見摸不到的,用心卻感覺得到,卻歷歷在目,忽然間就知道,自己不孤單。
there's no need to turn urself into a patch, i don't need to worry about ironing u on my shirt, or worry that u might get wet from the rain or wrinkle from the heat or even worry that i might forget to wear the shirt one day. because we are both in the safest places anyone can possibly be.
Loves me for who I am
我想這個部分其實是不需要再贅述了: )
Makes a difference in my life
這已經成為某種強迫症的習慣性動作: 按掉鬧鐘之後,就伸手胡亂地在床頭櫃上搜尋我的手機被我扔到何方,然後檢查是否又有新簡訊。
我想來自九千公里七個小時之外的簡訊起床號,不過是one of the many differences you make in my life.
好像每次看到下雪的時候,我就會皺眉,然後陷入沉思。
好像每次計畫旅行的時候,我就會想像,會有那麼一天,再回到這個地方的時候,身邊會多個你。
或是每次努力貫徹我的馬利歐精神的時候,就會認真思索換氣的奧秘到底怎樣才能夠講清楚說明白。
或是在馬路上在youtube上在課堂上,又看到了一個我知道會讓你狂笑的畫面,又發現了一個會讓你微笑的台詞,又遇到了一個會讓你苦笑的美國笨蛋,然後我就會告訴自己,要記得跟郭又甄分享,即使是那麼淡而無味的小細節,即使如此。
but then i want you to see the things i see, feel the things i feel, and that's the ultimate difference you've made in my life: the fact that it's no longer just my life, now that u have a irreplaceable role to play as well.
Never judges
某天下山的時候,你很(心機地?)若無其事地問了我一個聽起來是那麼far-fetched的問題,我像是被按對按鈕就失控不能自主的機器人,一五一十就全都招。我不知道是因為我想說反正我跟你也沒多熟所以無所謂,還是因為我覺得我跟你很熟,所以希望你知道;但是我知道,我會一而再,再而三,沒有包袱得去回憶天邊一道彩虹的這段往事,是因為知道你從來就不會論斷我,哈哈因為你似乎也沒甚麼立場批評。
i can come to you with anything, because i know that ur always on my side, and even when ur not, i know that u won't ever put me down.
Offers support
摔車是學騎腳踏車的必經路程。你知道我知道。可是還是會擔心,還是會皺眉頭,還是會說,寄個護膝給妳吧。
我不需要,不是因為我認為我不會受傷,也不是因為我的自尊心覺得連五歲小孩都不戴我怎麼可以戴這麼拙的東西,而是我已經have all the support i will ever need.
i am cared for and loved, what else is there?
Picks me up
我說我不喜歡作感情諮商,不喜歡事不關己的自己可以一派輕鬆地去分析去批評好像自己甚麼都很懂,最後給的三腳貓建議所帶來的後果,卻是別人獨自承擔。
but i try my best, because i care, because i want you to know that i've got ur back, that u have a safety net under you, that i will hold on to you for as long as you need me to. because i know that one of these days, it'll be my turn to crumble and break, and i'll need u to pick me up and put me back together.
Quiets my fears
我可以在你面前脫光光。
拆掉我所有的開關,拔掉所有的拆頭,一絲不掛得坦誠相對。
因為我知道,你是我的定心丸,是我的voice of reason.
再大的恐懼,我都可以鼓起勇氣正視他,因為我知道i'm not in this alone.
it's not about how brave or how big we are, it's about if we have someone to hold our hands when we trip and falter. and i have you, ur hand may not be that much bigger than mine, but the warmth spreads all the way to the core of my heart.
Raises my spirits
有些人,天生就有諧星的天份。但是,遇見你,認識你,"得到"你,總讓我笑不停,卻不是因為你是天賦異稟的諧星。
看到你就會笑,想到你就會笑,不是顏面神經失調,是因為知道,我有全世界唯一吃再多都沒有副作用的百憂解。
亢奮,因為知道there is one more fabulous reason to wake up every morning with a big toothy grin, and not even bad weather can dampen my spirits because u alone is enough to make the most abysmal of days vibrant and interesting.
Says nice things about me
我(很心機地?)讓我自己無孔不入地充斥在你的生活: 小綠牛、桌布、相框、笑笑羊、抽屜。
竭盡所能,製造回憶,製作連結。
不是為了滿足我的虛榮,讓你向別人總有用不完的素材說不完的好話,是為了要讓彼此都能確立i am always around.
當別人對我的小王子投以羨慕的眼光,我就可以驕傲地再炫耀一遍: 這是我最好的朋友送我的!
於是就好像你也在身邊,無時無刻。在我的言談之間,在我得意的微笑中。
i swell with pride at the mention of ur name, it's such an overwhelming feeling that if i don't shout for the whole world to know that u are my best friend, there is a risk that i might implode.
Tells me the truth when I need to hear it
體重/身材,似乎是個常常被"關照"的department.
對於常常一不小心就會遺忘某個愛帶著泰迪熊旅行的秘書小姐這件事情,被提醒的頻率似乎也高得令人招架不住。
然後是交換這件事。
曾經很傻氣地說,我要等你,等你回來,等你再續同窗緣,雖然我知道為了這樣的理由而放棄出國開眼界的機會是何等的愚昧。
雖然如此,對於離開,卻不知道為什麼會覺得愧疚,直到我楊璦蔆對我說,我不認為郭又甄會是那種為了自己而絆住你的人,直到我親自證實,you do have my best interests at heart.
i depend on you to be honest with me, depend on you to guide me down the rite path when i'm off track, i can depend on you because i know ur not someone who'd hold me back for no good reason, because i know i can trust you to see the reality that i refuse to see, because i'd do the exact same for you.
Understands me
你是我肚裡的蛔蟲。
在我開口前,你就搶去了我舌尖上的下一句話,我心頭上下一個無法言喻的悸動。
因為你瞭,就算不開口,就算不見面,都能感應得到,所以我們挺得過去,挺得過再遠的距離,再長得時差,再不同的人生。
因為你懂我。
溝通的最高境界,就是無聲勝有聲。
we're not listening with our ears, we're listening with our hearts; we don't look with our eyes, we stare, and hold that gaze, rite down each other's soul.
Values me
我不知道我值幾個法國人,不知道自己值不值得你揮灑這麼多嫁妝,不知道我的"好"是不是真的如此獨一無二、難出我左右。
但是我知道,至少在你心目中,我有個可以安身的抽屜: 不會擔心有人來跟我擠一間,或是遇到裝潢維修大掃除,就有要被資源回收的憂慮。
對我來說,是不是V.I.P., 是不是住在最上層都不重要。你的層層抽屜裡面,竟然有我專屬的空間,那就是你能給我最高的評價。
Walks beside me
如果真的有一天,我們再也無話可說,如果真的有一天,我們的生活再沒交集,我忙著當空中飛人,而你忙著邊烤蛋糕邊一手籌畫大型公關造勢活動,不要忘記,平行線總是肩並肩,同步調向前行。
總是會在終點見到面。
不需要約在最大的入口,或是帶著彩色的糖果當憑證。
我們會輕而易舉地用ESP在人群中辨識出對方,一開口話匣子就會再也關不起來。
是本能,是直覺,是如此自然而然,因為自始至終,我們都是並肩同行。
our hearts will recognize each other, will know that all along, we have never left each other's side.
X-plains things I don't understand
在我們的友情中,我們喜歡輪流角色扮演。
all the roles, all the lines, all the cues, we know by heart, just not when we're dealing with our own problems.
so we role-play and take turns pointing each other towards the rite direction, even tho we both know the map by heart.
we are only complete when we have the other, cuz we work as a team, that when one falters, the other's rite there to propel us forward.
i am not afraid of getting lost, because i have you.
Yells when I won't listen
我們就是有本事,五分鐘的時間換十個話題,有本事跳tone到不行然後接續著繼續聊,有本事指著對方的鼻子一陣鬼吼鬼叫胡言亂語卻沒有遺漏半句訊息。
我們就是有本事,會心一笑就聽到彼此心裡的聲音,琴都談壞了還是聽得到弦外之音,皺個眉歪個嘴就能替對方完成說不出口的遲疑。
我知道我們也有本事,在所有的吵雜紛擾中,聽見彼此的聲音。
i'd hold on to ur voice to find my way and direction amist all the chaos.
Zaps me back to reality
總覺得更多時候這個工作是我在為你做哈。
但是也只有在你面前,我可以沒有顧忌地吐露我的軟弱和不確定,因為我知道會不假思索賞我兩巴掌,把我從自憐自艾中打醒的人,只有妳。
so it's okay to be vulnerable in front of you, cuz all it takes is a good whopping from you, and i know i'll be stronger a fighter than i was ever before, ready to take on the world, cuz i've got u by my side.
你是我的ABC,自然就像呼吸吐納,簡單卻無可取代。